Have you ever had so much on your plate that you feel like you want to just curl up in a little ball and be invisible?
Have you ever asked God, “How do I keep getting into this mess?”
Do you ever just want to scream to the top your your sweet lungs “I just can’t do this anymore”?
My sister has a plaque on her wall that says “I have one nerve left and you are standing on it”
Sometimes I do a “Balanced Life” better than other times. Actually, this has been an area of struggle in my life for as long as I can remember. As far back as being a teenage single Mom right up until today, this has been a place of challenge for me and in fact, a place of sin.
Yes, I said SIN!
Jesus says in Matthew 11:30 “My Yoke is easy, my burden is light”. I think the reason that Jesus could say those words and offer that same option to us (verses 28-29) is because He had a clear purpose. He knew what He was supposed to do and not supposed to do. He knew, because He put His time with God FIRST!! He heard from God and did what His Father said to do.
Luke 4:18, 19 says
“The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, He has anointed me to PREACH the GOOD NEWS. He has sent me to proclaim FREEDOM for the captives, and recovery of sight to the blind. To set FREE the oppressed. To proclaim the year of our Lord’s favor”
In Luke 4:42-44 Jesus actually said NO to someone who wanted ministry!!
I so often SIN in this area by doing things or saying yes to things that I have not heard God tell me to do, I just do them because they need to be done, or because someone else is not doing them well enough for me, or because I am impatient to see them get done.
Then, before I know it, my LIFE is MESSY!!! I seem to be doing nothin’ good for nobody, or at least I feel that way!!
Last night, I had to spend some late night time with God. I had to pull myself away to ask God;
Where have I missed you?
Why am I so burdened?
Where did I get off the path.
My Abba Father met me in the dark hours of the night, just like He always does!
He always comes when we call on Him.
This is what He said….
Go back to the last thing I told you to do and do it!!
Stop doing anything I have NOT told you to do.
If you don’t know what I told you to do, slow down so that you can hear me tell you again.
“God will not ask how many books you have read (or written) or how many miracles you have worked; He will ask if you have done your best for the Love of Him!”
“I have learned that balance does not mean we are good at everything. it means that we do what we do well and get help with the rest. It means that we do not make the mistake of burning the candle at both ends and lighting a match in the middle. One of the definitions of balance is the power to decide. We all have that.”
Liz Curtis Higgs
So, here I sit. Still in my prayer chair.
Getting it again!