My friend Lysa Tekeurst has posted some precious surrendered secrets on her blog over the past few days. I encourage you to go over for a visit.
Lysa and I share the same secret.
Lots’ of our sisters do.
In fact, 1 in 3 women have a similar story.
43% of women of child bearing age share our secret.
The secret of an abortion in our past.
It was quite bizarre for me to find this on Lysa’s blog tonight, as yesterday was the anniversary of my own abortion.
It is a date that most women do not forget.
I actually carry a small card in my wallet that has the date written on it. It was given to me by the hospital personnel where my abortion was performed.
The “safe and legal” abortion that I paid extra money for so that I could be put to sleep and not have to face what I was doing.
The “safe and legal abortion” that resulted in an allergic reaction to the anesthesia they used that caused me to stop breathing and have to be put on a respirator.
The “safe and legal” abortion that was supposed to be a secret. I would go in in the morning an Be out by noon. No one would ever have to know.
The “safe and legal abortion” that caused me to stop breathing and be put respirator. I woke up with a tube stuck in my throat and my parents at the foot of my hospital bed.
The “safe and legal” abortion that had to be completed a week later due to “products of conception” that were left behind due to the emergency of my own life nearly being lost.
The “safe and legal abortion” that sent me spirally down into an abyss of pain, shame, guilt and self destruction for the next seven years.
Until, My Redeemer, Jesus Christ, rescued me, scooped me up into His arms and would not let me go.
I carry the little card in my wallet with September 17th on it, not to remind me of the abortion, or even of my precious little daughter that I will someday scoop up in my arms.
I carry the little card in my wallet to remind me that:
Neither death, nor life, neither angles nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.