I trust you Lord, BUT, I really would like to see where we are headed.
I have always been afraid of the dark. Since I was a little girl, sleeping in a bedroom with 3 younger sisters, darkness has un-nerved me. I must have some tiny little light to fix my eyes upon before I can truly relax. A tiny sliver of space in the hotel drapes; the street light that opens the darkness of my living room; the nightlight over the stove that shows me the way to the kitchen.
I have learned to capture the amount of light I need. The amount of light that makes me comfortable.
Most of the time.
But not right now.
This week I am about to step into some “life” darkness of sorts, that is not light enough to suit my fancy.
For some people, it may not be such a big deal. It is not some devastating medical report. I have people I love living in that kind of inky presence right now. My step is not THAT scary—but it is scary enough for me.
I have not been “unemployed” for over 40 years!
Actually, it is more than a “JOB” it is a part of my life and has been for a long, long time.
By my own choice, I am leaving a place of security and independence. What’s up with that??
I am stepping away from a place that has provided a very perfect LIGHT in my life for over 25 years and CHOOSING to trust God in the darkness. I am stepping away from my position as President of a ministry I founded and have essentially lived, led, served in, grown, prayed over and been extremely comfortable in–to step into a place where I can not see a thing. I have no idea where the safe places are. I don’t have a clue where I might land. I’m not even totally sure where the next step is!
Can you relate?
God says in Psalm 139:12 that “Darkness is Light” to Him.
Is there darkness in your life right now? Be reminded with me that our darkness is God’s Light. He sees us. He knows where to lead us He knows what we need.
Is there something going on where you can not see what comes next? Something that is requiring complete trust in God’s love for you? Real belief in His promise that “Darkness is light to Him”.
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