Needless to say I am beyond thrilled about my new book–DUH!! But not without fear. In fact, at times, I am petrified. Rather, I should say, being NOT Petrified is currently my biggest spiritual battle. You see, a very tender and difficult place in my life has been the feeling of being “unchosen” or rejected. In my personal FREEDOM walk, my Life Unstuck walk, that is a battlefield that I still visit in times of weakness of vulnerability. The good news–in fact THE GREAT NEWS– is that God has been leading, loving and teaching me to recognize the land mines of rejection and choose another path. I see His work coming to light in my life faster and smoother than ever before. I have said over and over–if my book is just for me, so be it!
Either way, as I have attempted over the past few weeks to apply the book “launch” skills of some of my published writer mentors, in terms of getting my book out there and praying for God’s anointing upon it, I have had to admit to God over and over that there is a tiny piece of me that almost hopes nobody even sees the book or worse yet, buys it.
Why you ask? I’ll tell you why…..
What if they hate it?
What if they think it is stupid or poorly written or both?
What if someone sees an error or a missed teepo 🙂 or quote credit.
Oh my gosh!!
I have found myself very terrified.
Then God sweetly and gently reminds me why I wrote the book to begin with. It was out of love for Him. It was out of obedience to Him. It was out of the overflow of my heart from Him.
As He always reminds me that I am His, that I am FREE and that my life is Unstuck.
So I release–afraid.
I release petrified and in place of those things..
I release PRAISE!
I release Celebration.
I release hope.
I offer my book to an ultimate audience of one. I submit my book into His mighty grip and I say “Here you have it Lord. This book is for you alone. You are my audience of one. Do with it as you feel is best–for my witness, for my kingdom deposit, for my LIFE UNSTUCK!!”
Funny enough–this song comes to my mind. Replacing a few “girl, honey and “dollings”, I am singing this song to you Lord!
In His Grip,