Oh, oh, oh. The heat has hit in a big way. Here in my home turf of Tampa, we not only watch heat vapors swirling up off the pavement but sometimes we see it blast from our behaviour. That was the story of my life last week.
I see myself heat up when I know in my heart I should be COOL.
I went to bed last night thinking of how often over the past week I have had MELT DOWNS! Thankfully, for the most part, they take place under the umbrella of my own head, home, family and only those closest to me get to enjoy them:)
I almost always feel very justified for my meltdowns. Something along the lines of “WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? I am SO innocent”.
You tell me if you agree.
My week started with my sitting down at my desk early one morning last week, fresh from my quiet time; hot coffee in my right hand, lifting computer cover with my left to see what the day had in store for me. I opened MacBookPro, clicked on my iCal (which I have only gathered the nerve to trust just this past year) and found it BLANK!
Yes, Blank. NO birthdays, no dentist appts, no speaking engagements, no ministry meetings….Nadda.
I immediately grabbed my IPhone to see if I had backup. Nope. Nothing.
I ended up spending the entire week trying to rescue my “life”. A week is a precious thing to loose. I had no idea, never occurred to me before, how much control that little silver tool that sits on my desk has over my heart and my daily life.
I spent 5 hours the first day of this fun journey, on the phone with many different people at Apple Support followed by hours and hours for the week following. They finally gave up with the hope of an over-the-phone rescue and sent me to the local Apple Store. This past Friday through Sunday, which also involved a Father’s Day Cookout at my home, was spent in and out of the Apple Store/”Genius” Bar.
This riveting story concludes with my spending all day yesterday reorganizing my computer after having been gifted with a new hard-drive.
The explanation ran somewhere between “I dun no” and “It is a glitch in Mobile Me which is why Apple is changing from Mobile Me to iCloud”.
In any case, the reason I am boring you with this silly information is that I have been thinking about (aside from how dependant my world is on my computer and wether or not I can EVER trust iCal again) how much and how often our OUTER WORLD- Controls our INNER WORLD.
Do you see that happen?
Days, Weeks, Seasons that seem to be wrapped up in something that you had entirely nothing ot do with?
No control over?
Times when you feel that things going on outside of your body, mind and spirit are pushing your days around?
There was one other event that happened last week, in the middle of my calendar loss, that has been rolling around in my head along with Time Capsules and Desktop Puzzles. Something that I know God was using to teach me a lesson. To say something through. To shake me into balance.
I attended the funeral of a precious 50 year old friend in our church family who was alive and having fun at a Devil Rays Game last weekend and dancing with Jesus the next. No illness. No warning. No computers to deal with.
Life is precious.
Heat is temporary.
How about you? How do you keep your cool when life gets sweaty?
We had a very hot night last week, both literally and figuratively. It involved hot weather with no air conditioning in the house, a broken truck, a broken car door handle, our animals using our carpet as a toilet, and my husband and me being very cranky with circumstances and each other. When I finally went to bed, I read from Psalm 56:13 – “For thou hast delivered my soul from death: wilt not thou deliver my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of the living?” It reminded me that yes, I was frustrated with my circumstances, but that this is the life I longed for when I was trapped in an abusive relationship. The Lord delivered me from abuse, delivered me from my sin, and brought me to the land of the living. Life is messy and while I don’t enjoy the irritations, I now remind myself that they are part and parcel of God’s gift to me in this redeemed life.
Lisa girl, you WIN!!
I love that Psalm and love your heart 🙂
Hi Pat! I’m at work and linked to your blog from an email I get here. So glad I did! It’s so good to “hear” from you. And I do relate to the post. Took a 4 hour drive home yesterday in 100+ degree weather in a car with no air conditioning. Result: my cool lost and a meltdown. No excuse. Glad to be reminded I’m not alone in the heat or in the struggle to keep my cool. 🙂
Oh sweet Janahn, what a thrill to hear from you. I think of you often and the sweet ladies of your team. I may be heading your way in August and will look you up 🙂
Love you sister,
Really? Where will you be??? When?! 🙂 🙂 🙂